Dear God, I need Focus.

Must assume full form of Control Freak personality. Structure, structure, structure.

Chaos is not working out.

My resolutions:

1. Build mental discipline through yoga, zikr and early morning prayer + exercise for calm mornings as opposed to maniacal driving to get to office by 8am

2. Diet discipline - more organic food to be closer to the Earth to feel more alive and grounded

3. Spiritual discipline - to delve into Ilm-ut-Tassawuf : The Science of the Heart, to navigate deeds. Above all, manage inner anger. If not fear will die of heart-attack in mid-sentence.

4. Be Less Passionate and More Objective. Passion must be tempered by Logic and Sensibility.

5. Increase Stamina and Energy to do more and do more and do more instead of bloody whining and griping

6. Less Whining and Griping. Especially for sake of my Therapist.

7. Open Heart for Love from Different Quarters. Must focus on Sensible Options as opposed What the Heart Really Wants. (refer Reso 4)

8. Be a Better Daughter. Stop Picking on Mum.

9. Learn Classical Arabic.

10. Lose weight and take advice of gay friend: Become a Diva, Darling. Nothing else will Do.